So the other day I left my facebook up at my friends house. An old friend who is a total wash up loser who is attempting to be a rapper then proceeded to say hey on facebook chat, my friend pretending to be me said FUCK YOU RAY before logging off swiftly. I know I may not be the nicest person in the world, but this hate mail literally made me laugh. This is what happens when you put your head up your ass.

To be honest Idk who the fuck you think you are Bry You come to me out of no where and say all this shit and tell me I'm an idiot about things you have no fucking clue about then tell me about who I was and what I did when I've already figured all this out months ago Do you think this is fucking news to me? Do you think I'm that stupid I'm not aware of what happened? Of course I do. I don't think you understand what the whole point of what happened its not about what I was using its about what I was or wasn't doing when I was getting high I wasn't happy, and now I am I'm doing everything I always wanted to I don't have assholes and people who claim they're there and really aren't holding me back from my dreams And you know what I don't really give a fuck about what you have to say why the fuck would I value your input in the first fucking place its always the same fucking thing with you You're a selfish prick you want something or you need something thats why you messaged me telling me you're making rhymes but have no producer Was I suppose to make an offer? Fuck you. You don't want the work or effort don't bother me I've come to far along on my own to stop and start thinking everything over because you had to say something and I'm shocked I'm even writing this to you cause I trusted the idea that maybe we could make some sort of amend but honestly it would be pointless I don't need it I don't I have what I have now because of what I decided to do and I'm happy don't think that you're gunna come to me and tell me about my life when you don't know shit and when you don't even understand it You're the biggest critic there is and you make it seem like you're the most important one and Yeah you know what I can still be an asshole but only if you give me a good reason and you coming out of know where trying to make it seem like I'm some sort of liar or some sort of faker for what happened you deserve it like I said my life wasn't that bad but its a lot of shit to deal with its a lot of reality But fuck it I don't need you to know that I don't give a fuck if you comprehend one damn word I say cause in the end I'm still gunna do what I want I refuse to let anyone or anything get in my way and I'm not looking for a fight but you just said the wrong fucking things learn to approach things better dick.

I answered him, lets just say he didnt have much to say back haha

Lost was mindblowing last night. Wow wow wow. So major spoiler alert, totally saw the fact they were brothers coming. But at the end of the episode when they show the smoke monster, alot of people argue what the smoke monster actually is its own being instead of being Jacob's brother. And the way that Jacob parts ways with his brothers dead body makes me believe that there's a little more going on then everyone thinks. I cannot wait for the end of the show. That took place in like 200 AD so we have like 2000 years unaccounted for of jacob and the smoke monster

Explanations turn to expectations turn to explorations.

wow im totally at my friends now just blogging because i have nothing better to do and kinda wanted to write. wow i feel like a total literally loser but im way too lazy to even capitalize. what is that? lol idk. i finished what dreams may come. to be quite honest i read it before but i really didnt know what else to blog about because my thought patterns so everywhere, so i just made it about some boring book lol. not boring, but i wouldnt re read what dreams may come, def recommend it to someone, but like, actually reading it again, nahhhh. anywayyy. its hilarious how everyone writes on their blogs, like, just strange ya know haha, you wonder if half the people actually think about what theyre saying or they just type it because they have to and it feels awkward. i went to rutgersfest in shorts shorts with all my lovely tattoos showing, i think i looked past being awkward at all. brand new was good at the fest though. oiiiiiii

I forgot to write actually about what dreams may come hahahaha, actually i just didnt forget i just need to have more blogs so i spaced it out because alot of people in this world are slackers anyway, so i decided this was better than not doing it. The novel is about a man dying and a women taking her life to deal with the grief of her husband. The only problem is that when she dies she doesnt go to hell or heaven, but is trapped in thinking that she is all alone forever. Its pretty trippyshit. the whole process after you die being explained is actually very satisfiting. so the husbands gotta go save this bitch, because thats the way it always is. Feminism is stupid. Everyones equal, so women just need to chill. You dont have to do manual labor, id rather be a housewife.

Im probably half way through What Dreams May Come. I love Matheson as a writer. Everything he usually writes whether it be a book or a screen write has this sense of just grief that is replaced today by gore. Maybe grief isnt the correct word, but his style of writing was an obvious impression on many horror writers of this decade. I also didnt know he wrote alot of episodes of the Twilight Zone. Not to seem like a huge nerd stoner, but I love that. The fact that have the episodes he wrote are my favorite ones doesnt surprise me at all.

Wow i just finished writing my research paper yesterday and lets just say, I loved writing it. Whether i got a good grade or not is beyond the point. Ive overall just fell in love with the process of writing. I should def charge people beer and money just to write papers..that be sick. I feel like Sara this year really helped me get an idea of lumping all my ideas together and actually making it coherent. Tying in all my points and relating each point was so easy this time, i actually found myself cutting alot of shit out just because it be too many pages. LOLOLOL. Im gonna miss english. What the fuck

spends too much money on the weekends

So I'm sitting waiting to take a final listening to a bunch of moms talk about school work. Its like..your stay at home moms, and youre complaining about how to use an excel sheet...ugh dont even get me started haha. Anyway, I picked up, What Dreams May Come, by Richard Matheson. I probably spelt his last name wrong, but for me, 9 30 am is kinda early. So yeahhh. I read a few other of his books, he wrote I Am Legend which got turned into a major motion picture starring Will Smith. I loved that when i read it, movie was good, and so were his other books so lets give this one a shot. Well i have to take a final now. oiiiiiii